Dear Diary,

Not long after I delivered my beautiful baby girl, I made several doctor’s appointments. One with the pediatrician. Another with my OBGYN. And a third with a therapist. At a time when I should have been overjoyed as a first time mom, I was exhausted, irritated and anxious. At night, I tossed and turned, worrying about my family’s future. During the day, I had mood swings to the moon and back and no appetite. I forced myself to eat hearty meals to sustain breastfeeding. The emotions were overwhelming, consuming and perhaps suffocating. I longed to return to my upbeat, positive personality, to celebrate motherhood and to breathe again.

So, I called a counselor. I needed to determine if what I was feeling would fade. I poured out my heart, spilling my fears onto her couch. I shared how I was dumped over the telephone by my long-term boyfriend in my second trimester; how I quit my job as a television reporter and teacher and moved from Washington, D.C. back home with my sister in Pittsburgh–a city I swore I would only visit not reside in when I left; and how I ruined my dream of marriage before the carriage. Although my heart took a while to heal, my tears eventually dried up. My extreme sadness was replaced with happiness shortly thereafter. I returned to my pre-pregnancy self and overcame my baby blues by exercising, eating healthily, talking to family and friends, and of course loving on my little one.

That’s why I agreed to spread awareness about the Hummingbird Study on behalf of Sage Therapeutics. I want other moms to know they’re not alone–other moms suffer. Be sure to read all the details below.

This post is sponsored by Sage Therapeutics, the sponsor of the Hummingbird Study.

Postpartum Depression


These are symptoms of postpartum depression. It’s not your fault.

Learn about a research study that may provide answers.

Postpartum depression is a biological complication of pregnancy. You’re not alone.

During pregnancy, the levels of certain hormones rise and then rapidly fall after giving birth. However, in some women, these hormone shifts may contribute to postpartum depression. The symptoms may begin to appear as early as the third trimester of pregnancy or within the first few weeks after childbirth. If you frequently feel sad, tearful, empty or hopeless it could be postpartum depression. Some women may also frequently experience angry outbursts, irritability or frustration, even over small matters. This condition ranges in seriousness from mild to severe, but only a medical professional can diagnose you to be sure.

The Hummingbird Study is a research study evaluating an investigational medication in women suffering from moderate to severe postpartum depression.

You may qualify to participate if you:

  • Are between 18 to 45 years old
  • Gave birth within the last 6 months
  • Frequently feel extremely sad, anxious, or overwhelmed and these symptoms are associated with postpartum depression

If you qualify and decide to participate, you will receive:

  • 24-hour care and support for your postpartum depression during the 3-day, in-patient period
  • All study-related medical care and medication provided at no cost
  • Any travel required to participate will be coordinated and paid for by Sage Therapeutics

Call 844-608-0808, Text MOM8 to 87888, or visit to see if you pre-qualify.

About The Author

Vlog Mom/DFTM Creator

Not long ago, Heather Hopson hosted a television show in the Cayman Islands. Today, she's back home writing a different kind of story as a new mom. In her 15 years working as a professional journalist, this by far is her best assignment! Growing up, she dreamed of becoming Oprah Winfrey. She was the features editor for her school’s newspaper and a teen talk show host for her city’s most popular radio station. She went on to earn a bachelor’s degree in Journalism from Michigan State University. After graduation, she worked as a television producer and reporter at CBS, NBC and Fox affiliates throughout the U.S. Instead of heading to Chicago to join Ms. Winfrey on her set, she bought a plane ticket to the Cayman Islands instead. She arrived five days before a category five hurricane! She lived in paradise for seven years, hosted an award-winning television show and traveled the globe with a government delegation. She also served on the board of directors for Big Brothers Big Sisters and spearheaded a Send a Kid to Camp campaign. Then, she relocated to Washington, D.C. to obtain a teaching certification and instruct 8th grade reading at a high needs middle school. She later returned to her hometown of Pittsburgh, PA to raise her daughter Caitlynn, now 4-years-old. During her 10-month-stint as a stay-at-home mom, Caitlynn inspired her to create this blog, and Diary of a First Time Mom was born on Mother’s Day 2012. Two years later, she expanded the family to include 20+ writers. Currently, Heather serves as the communications director at Allies for Children. In addition, she is the owner of Motor Mouth Multimedia, which ranked #49 in Startup Nation’s Home-Based 100 Competition sponsored by Discover Card and Sam’s Club. Recently, The Pittsburgh Foundation and The Heinz Endowments selected Heather to receive an Emerging Black Artist award to develop Diary of a First Time Mom.

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